A DAY OF MOURNING

The day didn't begin as one of the saddest day in my life.
It began a little late as I had not been sleeping when I should have. It was already four when we left mom sleeping at her hospital bed after finally she was given the nitro pill to ease her chest pain.
She had been complaining about her pain since the night before.

My alarm rang at six but I switched it off before finally getting out of bed at seven thirty.
Done with the need to do and was on the way to the Hospital to get mom.
Stopped over at dad's house to get her baggage which I had prepaid last night.

What I thought would be just a normal pick up soon turned out not to be. Her condition had gone worse and it seems that she was not able to make the trip. Jeff called me while I hold the car for them to come . He said looks like we were not going to make the trip.
Last minute burst of energy made her change her mind and we were on the way to the airport slightly twenty minutes to departured time.
Booked on the first class seats made the plane wait for them.

I saw mom was pale and weak but was still able to talk with me. I said I love her, hugged and kissed her before saying goodbye ......not knowing those would be the last things I did with her.
I didn't want to upset her more so my last words were briefs although tears were shed.

I went back to the hospital to do her discharged papers. Went to see dad after that  received the good news that they have landed safely at KKIA and was not waiting for the next flight to Penang.
With all seems well I finally went home to wait for further news.
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Penang SDA Hospital's ambulance went to the airport to await her flight......
She never made it.
http://www.thestar.com.my/News/Nation/2013/12/13/Kuching-senior-citizen.aspx/

Jeff called around 4pm..which made me think they have landed. Sadly it was not so.
We were told that she passed thirty minutes into the flight.

Dad was in a state of 'denial'  but was accepting the condolences calmly when church members came to the house at night..
So many thing go through my mind that made it so difficult to sleep. I know it must be more difficult for dad.
All I can feel now is the 'hollowness' in my heart now......
I missed my mommy so bad!